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SpiderMew
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United States
Hey everyone! Im SpiderMew, The Superhero Pokemon! Ive been arround the internet for a long time now. I think its been almost 13 years, ive lost track of time a bit. I started using DA recently, i dont remember opening it up 2 years ago, but hey, atleast im uploading stuff now.

Current Residence: San Pedro CA
deviantWEAR sizing preference: 6X
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Classic Rock, Metal, Video Game Remixes
Favourite style of art: Its hard to pick a favorate when cool stuff can be found in all styles
Personal Quote: Its ok, I'm an actor.
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Finally had a job interview recently after searching for so long.
Thought it went great but i got an email saying that they were not going to use me.
I don't want to be depressed and down, but im constantly subjected to stress every day.
I feel constantly threatened with homelessness. Its complicated to get into and explain.
I just want to relax but i also am really upset i didn't get this job. Even just a part time job would be enough to get the ball rolling into fixing my problems.
Everything in this world boils down to fucking money and it sucks. I don't know why no one will hire me. I could keep harping on why but I know i have to just kick myself out of it and push on. Yet that feels like im trying to shove my way though a brick wall. I wish i could figure some way around everything. I don't feel like im good enough at anything i post on here to try to make any money out of it. I don't know what to do anymore and everything that used to be fun just reminds me of how i don't have my shit together. Every-time i try to start a new project something or someone brings me back down, and i don't have the freedom to focus on what i want like i did when i did have a job or was in college. Is that because i was able to focus all of my stressful energies on school and work, allowing me to let go of those and enjoy what free time i did have; or am i punishing myself by not allowing myself to enjoy anything until I can reliably support myself and my brother when my grandmother dies and im left on the street as my aunts sell the condo out from under me. I know I wouldn't survive long on the streets, i do not feel like im strong enough to escape that. Yet I don't want to end my life if it goes that far. I don't want it to go there. If i could just get a fucking job. I shouldn't have gone to college. All its done is left me with debt and lots of time from the last time i did have a job. I should have just gotten a new job right away. I'm only even ranting here cuz i think it will be less likely anyone will actually read it and I need to vent. It all leaves me so angry, and sometimes i want to take all my frustration and shove it into a sledge hammer and destroy everything, but ide break my arms if i did that......Osteoperosis. I don't know how to really let go of my stress anymore, nothing works it seems, but is that my fault? So much is.
  • Mood: High
  • Drinking: Coke

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:iconcharizard-can-die:
charizard-can-die Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
why did u mix spiderman and mew
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SpiderMew Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Because 17 years ago I was making my first aol screen name, and decided to combine 2 things i was really into. Spider-Man was my favorite Super-Hero, and mew was the pokemon that really combined best with Spider-Man. 
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charizard-can-die Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
cool
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Potemkill Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I saw your mix of spiderman and mew and I made this
potemkill.deviantart.com/art/S…
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LunaPrincessNinjato Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014   Digital Artist
Happy Birthday to you, SpiderMew
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OmegaMiltonCyber Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Student Writer
Happy Birthday Spider-Mew! Hope you have a fantastic birthday! :D :llama: :cake: :dance:
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Ryugaknight Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014
youtu.be/muaVB4K-WSA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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Aenea-Jones Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
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:iconlainloveplz: :iconeufrosis: :icongrin--plz: :iconthxwatchbubbleplz: :iconeufrosis:  :iconlainloveplz:
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KamiGodFigureDimensi Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2014
Thanks for the Llama badge.
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LunaPrincessNinjato Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2013   Digital Artist
Happy Birthday keep on being you
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